Lyrics

Dishonest Smile

Verse 1:
I don’t have a mask for this place
This isn’t a time when I can just fix my face
To hold back the tears is too great a fight
So heaven forbid, you just might lose sleep too tonight

I can’t be the good wife
And the good mom
The good daughter
The good friend

I can’t be the organizer
And the empathizer
Heal myself
And you and them

I tried to be convenient for ya
But I failed to win that fight
So if you could
Just hold me tonight
If you could
Hold me tonight

Chorus:
I don’t know just what I’m supposed to ask for
Does the joy really come in the morning
I’d almost rather just cry on this cold floor
And let you snore
Cause I still have to brave tomorrow morning
With a dishonest smile

Verse 2:
I admit that I’m in rare form
I’m having to mourn the fact that I’m losing my old norms
I no longer care what I look like
So heaven forbid you’ll see this puffy face tonight

Chorus:
I don’t know just what I’m suppose to ask for
Does the joy really come in the morning
I’d almost rather just cry on this cold floor
And let you snore
Cause I still have to brave tomorrow morning
With a dishonest smile

Bridge:
I’m nothing more
Than a beautiful mess sometimes
It’s like I’ve been shot back
To the age of five

My body is aching
But I don’t need your pity
I just need love love love

Breakdown Chorus:
Cause I don’t know exactly what I’m asking for
I just need joy to come this morning
Cause I can’t stay down on this cold floor anymore
Cause life goes on in the morning

Chorus:
I don’t know just what I’m suppose to ask for
Does the joy really come in the morning
I’d almost rather just cry on this cold floor
And let you snore
Cause I still have to brave tomorrow morning
With a dishonest smile

[Breakdown]
Come hold me
You said that you’d be here in any weather
Should I wake you up
Come help me
(Smile)
I can’t get up
I can’t get myself up
I need to smile
(Smile)
Please tell me what to do
Just help me
(Smile)
Help me feel less emotion
(Smile)
Please